Before I come to know him, I’m just an ordinary girl doing ordinary things everyday…
I’ve never been into a relationship (I don’t consider mutual understanding a relationship^^)…I easily get infatuated with someone that my heart beats wildly when I see one…until…
2 years ago,my heart just got tired…my friends were bothered by it coz I suddenly turned out a cold person when they know I’m really not like that…I don’t pay attention on guys anymore…I don’t even recognized myself anymore coz I’m really not use to that kind of attitude of me…Sure,sometimes I find them cute but that just it…no fast heartbeat or blushing anymore…my friends said that maybe I did matured…I think so too…a 20-yr old girl should really mature that time…no more fretting & ogling over boys…but I did turn cold…and its really disturbing me & those whose close to me…until…
I know SJ since 2007 coz of Haengbok MV (1st mv I saw them with) but I didn’t care back then…then I saw Don’t Don but still didn’t care much though I find it powerful…then came Neorago & Sorry Sorry!I thought,maybe I should start caring…and I did…but I don’t have bias back then…I only know Ryeowook & Kyuhyun coz they’re voices just registered in me…Eunhyuk coz of his great popping skills & Shindong being different among the bunch…but I didn’t call myself an ELF back then coz frankly I didn’t know much about SJ & I didn’t know that ELF is their fandom…until…
Korean Wave started to penetrate the music scene here in the Philippines…then…Bonamana came & its a big hit on music channels I’m watching everyday…and I noticed this particular boy…and I told myself I should start researching about this group if I want to know this boy…so I did…I got to know SJ more then…I memorized their names in a span of 1 week just to recognize them whenever I got to watch their MV…I downloaded all their songs & MVs on my phone & lappy…I’ve watched all their shows on YT…and I’m happy I did all those things…I even sign up on forums where I got to know fellow ELFs…then, I know, my life has never been the same again…then finally the last straw came…
The boy who catch my attention back in Bonamana MV had his shirt unbuttoned & I was like, “Who the hell is he?”…So his name was Park Jungsoo, Leeteuk for his screenname…& he’s the leader…all along I thought it was Kangin coz frankly Leeteuk don’t look like the leader when I first saw them…I haven’t even paid much attention to him…It would always be Wookie,Kyu,Hyuk & Shindong…until that Bonamana day where I saw him almost half naked…I was like gaping at him not because I find his body hot back then but because I find it annoying…yes,annoying!LOL
WTH did he almost stripped in that mv when all of the other members have their clothes on?He’s different from the rest to think that he’s not that well built…He’s so slim to have rock-hard abs…and I don’t like boys with that kind of abs,abs that don’t fit their body type…after a week or so,another MV came…that mv changed my mind set of him^^
No Other was like the best song & MV of them for me…its sweet & cute…the boys are just so fluffy when they appear one by one…but when Leeteuk’s part came I was blown away…surrounded by white light,his dimpled smile caught me off guard…Is he really the almost naked guy I’m so pissed off?
My heart that was locked up for two years starts beating so fast that I got teary eyed while clutching my chest painfully coz I think it would burst open that time…its like i was thrown out of my reverie…like I’v been released from the dungeon I’m imprisoned…and I can see the light again…it may sound unrealistic but its true…
He’s my first bias & forever he will be…true, its been like just 6 months since he became officially my bias but I know he will be the ultimate one forever…but now that he’s going somewhere & do something important for his country & countrymen…I don’t know what will happen to me…just…
Please don’t let me go back to that cold & dark place I’ve been locked up for two years…