FOREVER STARTS FROM NOW

“There will always be faces that you can never look at and names you can never hear spoken without feeling any kind of emotions…just when you think you’re about to give up, you’ll remember all the reasons why you held on so long.”-AngeLuvJen

January 11, 2012. My tweetdeck was so noisy…updates everywhere…why? It’s the day which Super Junior & ELF were all waiting for… judgement day for the hardwork, efforts put into & money wasted ever since SJ’s comeback.

But everything was worth it…more than worth it.

And seeing them with that teary eyes but with big smile on their faces… every ELF sacrifices were compensated.

No more tears of sorrow were shed…only tears of joy can be seen on everybody’s faces. World ELF, though miles and miles apart from each other, held hands and rejoicing at this moment.

January 11, 2012. A new chapter in the history of Super Junior and ELF has been written. The Golden Disk’s “Daesang Award” was back in our hands again. The prize was given to the people who deserves it more than anybody else.

Now, we are back on page # 1. A new beginning. A new chapter. A new history will soon begin.

6 YEARS & STILL COUNTING

행복 6th 주년 슈퍼주니어!!!

SS3 3D: SEIZE THE MOMENT

“If you have the chance to take the moment that you know will be memorable, GRAB IT! Always think that the word ‘NEXT TIME’ is always too far.”

I’ve watched Super Show 3 Manila in Araneta last February 26,2011. I’m seated on Upper Box B along with a dear friend but even if we were far away from the stage, the feeling of just being inside the dome with the boys and other ELF’s so overwhelming. When it ended, I really wished it happen again and so it did…SMe announced the showing of SS3 3D in Seoul back in February. Netizens from all over the globe gone crazy hoping their countries could have it too.

We, Philippine ELFs,  have given the opportunity to see THE GREATEST SHOW ON EARTH. Remember that SS3 3D was only shown in Korea,Japan,Taiwan & Singapore. And for a third world country that we are, we are damn lucky that we are included in the list now. Let us show the world that we are worthy of it. That ELF from Philippines are here for Super Junior.

I know some were saying we keep on telling everybody to watch SS3 3D to have SS4 Manila and it was selfishness on our part. That they don’t have that money to be able to watch it and so on and so forth. True, we keep on promoting it not because the producers asked us to but because we are ELF. That reason alone is more important than anything else. And yes, it’s true that we want SS4 Manila to happen so we keep on reminding everybody to watch SS3 3D. But it wasn’t selfishness on our part. Is it selfishness when one wants to help the SS3 3D in Manila successful for us to be able to have SS4? The producers said it themselves that SS3 3D sales is one of the gauge for SS4 Manila. The sales of SS3 3D will be included in the funds for SS4. Now, is that what you call selfishness? It’s just damn funny how those people keep reacting over the promotions of fanbases for SS3 3d when they are the one who’s so eager to have SS4 Manila.

SEIZE THE MOMENT now that we still have it, coz believe me, it is ALL WORTH IT. The feeling of watching the real concert from that in cinema is different especially if you were seated in General Admission or Upper Box areas. SS3 3D will take you on the VIP SEAT!You definitely don’t want to miss it. 

MANTRA

“How can you believe int the word “BELIEVE” when there’s “LIE” in the center? When there’s “END” at the end of every “FRIEND“? And “OVER” in every “LOVER“?”

Then take this following words in you heart and mind…like a prayer… an incantation… a meditation…a MANTRA. Repeat it over and over again, and you’ll see everything will get better. Maybe not now… but atleast by doing this pledge, we all have one mind set. And that’s what matters.

I pledge thee…

LET’S FACE IT

“When you find the courage to stand up for someone, would be the moment you understand love.”

True. But…

It’s so hard defending the one you love when nobody seem to listen…

It’s so hard pretending you don’t feel any hate when your own body & mind screams anger…

It’s so hard trying not to let your tears fall from your own eyes when every time you see their hardships and all, the company they serve their whole life with don’t give a damn anymore…

They suffer too much… lose a member along the way… lose a big award for a stupid reason when we all know for a fact that they deserve it… 2 members went to serve his country… another one will go… and yet still standing amidst all of this.

I know it’s not SNSD’s fault but SONEs can’t blame ELFs if a fanwar starts again. If there is someone to blame here, it’s the company they serve. The unfairness and favoritism.

Let’s face it. If there is one idol group under SME who brings lots of profits in the company, that would be Super Junior. So please don’t take us for a fool. We are sick & tired of it. Don’t let the remaining gratitude & respect we have for bringing SJ into the KPop world vanish because of this crap.

SECOND BEST… BUT STILL THE BEST

He’s the only member of Super Junior who managed to always make me think twice about choosing Jungsoo as my bias. Sure, Yesung, Sungmin & the EunHae couple managed to do that too but this four have certain places in my bias list and they don’t bother my feelings unlike what this particular member was doing. He’s creating havoc in my system to the point where I was asking myself “If by chance that I saw him first instead of Leeteuk, would he be on the top spot?” I bet he will… coz if not, I wouldn’t be asking myself that question and it would be hypocrisy on my part if I won’t admit that I, too, like that beautiful human being.

He was misunderstood for his actions. He was loathed for his personality. He was envied for his feminine-like beauty. All of this negativity was because of his unique character. But why judge a person whom you don’t personally know and just based it on what you are seeing? He may be different from the rest of the artist his age but this same reason made him stood out from the rest. His name is…

KIM HEECHUL

He’s a good hyung to his dongsaengs although it’s not obvious. He’s a good dongsaeng to his only hyung, Jungsoo. He’s a very good friend to his league, the Chocoball. He’s a good master to his pets. And most importantly, he’s the Universal Space Big Star of Petals all around the world. A multi-talented person worthy of love and respect… if only other people see beyond what he portrays.

My respect for him as a person goes beyond from being a fan. He may be second best to Leeteuk from my fangirl point of view but still he’s the best. He’s never afraid to voice out what he feels even if the consequences of what he will say or do would affect his status as an idol. He’s the kind of person who’s transparent to his feelings even if this transparency makes him look like the grumpy & moody kind of guy. But this certain character proves that he has a pure heart… why? When he’s hurt or feeling down, he’ll shut out the world and let himself heal from the pain his feeling… but when he can’t take it anymore, he’ll shed his rare tears and you’ll know it’s pure. The tears of a strong person are the purest of all coz it comes from his heart. He may come out as a vulnerable person when he did but it only shows he’s only human capable of feeling hurt. And when Heechul show the world his smile, you’ll know its sincere coz it’s rare to see him smile.

THE MILKY WHITE SKIN NINJA

He’s one of the few people I know who’s loved and hated at the same time but this only make him more popular and respected in the industry. And now that he’s going to enter the military to serve his country, I will miss him terribly. His PETALS (Undead or not) too… and all ELF around the world. No more out of this world antics & gags on stage. No more smirk with intense stare. No more Lady HeeHee. No more random posts from @Heedictator. But two years isn’t that long. And even though Heechul said that we should not wait for him, we will all wait. Every ELF & Petal will.

Life must go on but along with moving on is holding on to the promise we made, not just to Heechul but to all of the members of Super Junior who left… who temporarily leave for the army and to those who will leave to serve his country in the future. And when that happens, we are stronger… stronger and better than what we are now.

What is E?What is L?What is F?

I’m not a folklore creature with those pointed ears and white bearded face. I’m not a fairytale character who lives in a tree house with a damsel in distress. I’m not a mystical creature living in the dark and have magical powers. I’m just a normal human being who lives peacefully here in this world. I eat, I sleep, I breathe and live or die. I smile, I laugh, and I can get hurt and cry. But the only thing that separates you from me is, I have 15 special men in my life.

I’m proud of their great leader who always wears his angelic smile. I admire their sub leader who’s never afraid to be always true to his self. I respect the Chinese man who stand up and defend his decisions in life. I love the art-like voice of their weird but talented guy. I believe in the strength of the “most handsome man” to stand up and face his flaws. I’m amazed of the cuddly bear that got the “moves”. I cherish the many sides of the pumpkin guy who’s not ashamed to admit he loves pink. I care for the crying baby monkey who shows the world his unique gummy smile. I am moved with every tear that falls from the prince-charming guy. I bow down to the guy with many gestures for his strong faith in God. I’m not losing hope that the man with the beautiful smile will come back. I love how the “eternal magnae” takes care of his hyungs with his cooking skills. I like how the magnae “plays” the role of a hyung and never afraid to show his evil mature side. I look up to the chic man who never back down from detractions. And I find the musical child genius who wears his cute puffy cheeks so irresistible; fifteen normal humans but multi-talented men that I hold dear inside my heart.

I may not have super powers like the mystical creature my name associates with, but I can do better than that. I can spread love and friendship all over the world because I believe in these 15 men… because I believe that we are ONE. And one thing I assure you is that I promise to stand up beside them no matter what the future have for both of us. That I promise to hold on to the vow I made; to protect the bond between us until the world is covered with Sapphire Blue balloons.

Wondering who am I? I go by the name of ELF, an Ever Lasting Friend of Super Junior. Nice to meet you 

DWENDE o KABUTE? Alin ka sa dalawa?

Badtrip ako after makapanood ng Rated K sa ABS-CBN kaya naman naglabas ako ng sama ng loob sa text dahil wala akong internet sa ngayon. Marami akong nakakwentuhan na kapwa ELF, yung iba pare-pareho kami ng opinion, yung iba hindi at nirerespeto ko yun. Pero may particular topic akong nabuksan, yun ay yung mga klase ng ELF ngayong mga panahon na ito at isa sa mga kausap ko ang nagbigay sakin ng ideyang ito dahil narin siguro pareho kami ng pananaw.

Base na rin sa mga nakikita at nakakausap ko, sa facebook, twitter, tumblr, forums o sa personal man, eto lang ang napansin ko sa mga kapwa ko ELF, international at Pinoy, may dalawang klase pala ng ELF. Pero dahil Pinoy ako, magfocus muna tayo sa mga Pinoy ELF.

May 2 klase ng ELF sa Pilipinas:

1. DWENDE- Pinoy translation ng elf. Sila ang mga hardcore Pinoy ELF, yung klase ng ELF na kahit anong mangyari sa SuJu ay nandyan lang palagi, handang sumuporta , moral man o pinansyal. Sila din yung tipong tanggap lahat ng kahinaan at kalakasan ng bawat miyembro ng Super Junior. Iiyak pag umiiyak ang isa, masaya pag masaya sila, yung iba nga tatawanan pa yung member pag nakakatawa na yung pinaggagawa nila. Pero kahit mukang tanga na sila minsan sa kung ano-anong kalokohan na ginagawa nila sa sarili nila, tanggap na tanggap ng mga DWENDE ang lahat. A TRUE BLUE ELF ika nga. Isama na natin sa kategoryang ito yung mga official fans club sa Pinas na talaga namang napakasipag at dedicated sa Super Junior dahil sa mga fan project at kung ano-ano pa. Sobrang nakakabilib silang mga DWENDE J

1. KABUTE- Pinoy translation ng mushroom. Sila naman ang mgaoccasional ELF, yung klase ng fan na sumusulpot lang pag trip nila, kabute nga kasi. Maraming naglipanang ganitong klase ng fan ngayon, pansin ko lang. Sila yung mga klase ng “ELF” na nagpaparamdam lang pag may nangyaring maganda sa SuJu o di naman kaya e makikisali sa kasiyahan ng kapwa daw nila ELF, masabi lang na ELF din sila. Pero madalas, sila yung mga tipo na may konti lang na pinagdadaanan ang SuJu o ang fandom e nega (negative) na agad at aalis ng fandom tapos babalik pag humupa na ang tension at masaya na ang lahat. Isama pa yung mga “fans club” na biglang litaw at nakakapampagulo lang doon sa mga official fans club. Hindi ko alam kung nagpa- power trip lang sila o sadyang hindi lang talaga sila tunay na ELF.

Gusto kong papaniwalain ang sarili kong mas marami pa rin ang bilang ng mga kapwa ko DWENDE kaysa sa mga KABUTE. Na mas marami pa rin ang TRUE BLUE ELF kaysa sa mag OCCASSIONAL ELF lang. Na ang mga KABUTE ay pwedeng maging DWENDE pero ang DWENDE ay wag naman sanang maging KABUTE.

So, ikaw, alin ka sa dalawa? 

DIMINISHING SAPPHIRE BLUE LIGHT?

MAY 29, 2011, 8 PM. An episode all about Korea aired on one of the programs of a local network here in the Philippines. It’s fun, entertaining and educational since we have learned so much about the colorful culture of Korea. And one of the topics they tackle was the Korean Pop culture.

We all know that Korean music and entertainment has invaded the lives of not just Asian people but even those Americans & Europeans. Korean dramas were shown on local channels whether it is subbed or dubbed and everybody’s hooked on it. Korean music invaded the local music industry even though we don’t understand any word they were singing. But maybe that’s the magic of it, the mystery of its language and the feeling it brought to the audience, young or old it might be.

But what caught my attention was one of the highlights of the program, the music industry of Korea, specifically the KPOP idol groups. And one of them is Super Junior. You can’t blame a fan for noticing a thing, good or bad it might be, about their idols, right?

The host particularly said that this idol group is not active and famous in their own country. I don’t want to sound like a butt-hurt fan coz frankly even before I got into the fandom, I already know that Super Junior was not as famous as they used to be, but what hurt this fan’s heart was that they didn’t thoroughly researched the facts. Sure, Super Junior was not as famous as 2PM or other younger idol groups in Korea but still, they already established their band in the entertainment industry and they were now conquering America and Europe. Individual members of Super Junior even have established their own names in the industry as MCs, DJs, theater actors, composers, television hosts, product endorsers and entertainers. Is that what they call not famous? Not even half it was done by other group who’s more famous than them now.

They were not as famous as other groups not because they lack of fans and such but because of the competition in the Korean music industry due to the new groups sprouting like mushrooms. And this new groups look up to them as inspiration and as parameter for success because of what they have become all these years and their numerous achievements. Fans should know about it but sadly it’s not. Because of this program, I saw what some fans really are, to think that they are with SuJu longer than I am and that’s what really hurts me.

Fine, I was still new in the fandom, considering that I got into this just last year 2010, but even before I got into the fandom, I know for a fact that they are not as famous as they were way back when they debuted up to 2009 during Sorry, Sorry days. I know for a fact that they are getting older and, that sooner or later, they will gradually be inactive in the industry. But these things didn’t stop me from getting into the fandom. Why? Because of one particular thing that I saw between the idol group and their fans. Love.

I got lured into the fandom because of the strong bond between Super Junior and ELF. It was like having older brothers and sisters. A family. It was so pure and magical that I couldn’t believe it in my own eyes until I accepted it in my life. But where’s the fandom I know? The fandom that I believe will always be there for SuJu and for each other? Just because Super Junior was not famous as they used to be, fans will start to back away? I know not all ELF are like that but we can’t deny that there are really some who’s doing this kind of stuffs. Some fans backing away from the fandom and the idols they profess their undying love & loyalty just because they are getting old and started to be less famous. Some fans start to care less when they find other groups more famous than SuJu. I don’t want to believe that the Sapphire Blue light is diminishing….

I want to believe that there’s more ELF who will still be there for Super Junior when they become Super Senior. I want to believe that when Super Junior members part ways and do their own thing, ELF will still support each member on whatever they decide to do with their individual lives. I want to believe that ELF will keep the fire burning. I want to believe that ELF will keep their promise to cover the world with Sapphire Blue balloons. I want to believe that even if the fandom might dissolved and so is the group they cherished, ELF will continue what they have established, the love for each other. I want to believe that Super Junior and ELF are still family, that we are still ONE.

Even if things become like this, I want to believe that our bond is still strong……. Because that’s the fandom I know… that’s the fandom I got into… that’s the fandom I want to grow old with…

IS IT JUST A JOKE OR A BAD CASE OF BEING A FAN?

As a fan girl, it’s okay to say that your bias is your boyfriend, your husband or whatever you want them to be. It’s understandable since you are a fan but claiming and branding them as your own is another matter especially if you are threatening the lives of other fans.

I’m not into ELF text clan but I have friends from the fandom who got my number from forums and such, which was fine with me coz we have the same interest, Super Junior. And it’s been like a month ever since I’ve been in touch with other ELF through text messaging. It’s fun getting to know them more through it, but lately, I’ve been bothered by something.

At first, it was just one ELF who keeps texting that kind of group message saying things like she doesn’t want other ELF who has the same bias as her to text her. I thought it was okay thinking she was just jealous and it wouldn’t bother me anyway coz we have different bias. But then it gotten somehow disturbing when she started saying things like her bias was hers alone and worst was she mentioned killing whoever claims her bias, not just once but every time she send a group message. Is that a joke or what? Coz if that was a joke, it’s not funny at all.

As her fellow ELF and unnie, I did try to understand her since she was way younger than me. But it really disturbs me when other young girls like her do the same thing. One girl doing that, even if it’s a joke or whatever, is tolerable but when they become 2 or more, it’s quite alarming. Alarming because it’s not only that they threaten the lives of other fans, though I know she don’t have the guts and means to do it, but also their own lives when they keep saying they’ll commit suicide. And other fans really did it right? Why? I don’t get it.

There’s no harm in dreaming but sometimes you have to wake yourself up to pull you back to reality. You are not the only person in this world who happens to like him. There are so many fans out there who happens to like your bias too and you all have the right to claim them as your boyfriend or husband.  You can’t just stop and say to others not to like them. We all have equal rights. I don’t think a fan would like to be known as a delusional, obsessive, deranged one.

A Short Journey of being an ELF

Random thoughts keep popping in my head as i watched videos of you from youtube and talking to other ELFs on many fanpages and fandom community…i couldn’t take it anymore..the emotions and opinions are hard to bear…

Though i haven’t been with you from the beginning of your journey on November 6, 2005…i was aware of you guys because of a friend in highschool who was addicted to KPop…my awareness for all of you came when i saw you in your Haengbok mv…but i wasn’t hooked on you by that time…just find the MV and the song cute but i’m not paying attention to the singers individually though i know its you Super Junior…and i’m sorry…

I came to really like you when i saw you, again, on your Neorago MV..i must say its a long process of liking you..but this kind of affection that grows in one’s heart through time is stronger than anything and everything in this world…tested through time…but seriously, i really regret it that sometimes i think i’m too old (i’m just 22) for liking you, seeing and aware that most ELFs are in their teens…but age doesn’t really matter right?…i’m just sorry that iv’e begun supporting you a bit too late…but still..

I want to thank you for making us smile and creating a world filled with sapphire blue balloons…thank you because we gained Ever Lasting Friends from across the world..that even though there’s a language barrier, we still understand each other through your music…when Words fail, Music speaks right?

Almost 2 years of being an ELF and still counting..along with old ELFs and new ELFs that i know will keep on coming.we will support you no matter what happens…

Cry if you must…feel hurt if you must…shout and be angry sometimes if you must..that way, the world will know your still humans, capable of being hurt and feel weak at times when you can no longer handle everything…but please always remember to smile at the end of the day…remember the happy times with one another..that you got each other through thick and thin…and most importantly, remember that ELFs are always with you…after all, we are a FAMILY…