Showing posts with label Henry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Henry. Show all posts

Friday, June 7, 2013

CAUGHT IN A TRAP

Four years...

For 4 years, I thought I was okay... that I was fine... that I had moved on... that Super Junior have managed to make me forget... the regret, the pain, the face. That loving 15 men, even if they were so far away, was better than loving a person who was there by your side but never really sees you... that liking 15 men would compensate everything.

But I never imagined that one of them will bring back the past that I thought I have overcome...

Biting my lips... feeling that nauseous sensation as tears slowly forms in my eyes. A moment later, I found myself wiping those salty tears as they fall on my cheeks... just because Henry Lau made me feel things I shouldn't be feeling anymore...

Bittersweet memories that I thought I have forgotten a long time ago... blurred faces becoming clear once more... and the wound that I thought have healed seemed to open once again... all because of that one song.

I could just close the player and walk away... I could just turn off my laptop and get myself busy reading books or even watch tv... but no...If only I could just stop torturing myself, I would... but I can’t... not when I’m trapped with Henry’s voice.



Monday, April 23, 2012

THE WORLD DOESN’T CONSIST OF JUST ONE COLOR


“People throw rocks at things that shine.”

We have made a promise to fill the world with sapphire blue balloons… that we’ll show the boys a perfect sapphire blue ocean, but we broke that pledge. And it’s so damn ironic that we were doing it in front of the boys themselves. It was like inflicting and licking a wound that won’t seem to heal.

Black ocean.

I don’t know if it’s because Zhoumi & Henry were already in SJ when I joined the fandom that it was easy for me to accept them as members or it’s just that it wasn't really a big deal for me if a 13 boy band would be 15. Maybe it’s both. And there’s always a saying that “The more, the merrier.” But I know that some don’t have the same perception as I am and I can’t blame them if they think like that coz they’ve been there since first day.

But...I can think of many reasons why they won’t accept (until now) HenMi, the same as, I can come up with more reasons why they should. And one thing is for sure, those people are afraid… afraid of the ghosts they created themselves.

Black ocean.

What the fandom doesn’t realize is… The downfall of SJ won’t be because of Leeteuk or Heechul or any of the members or the group themselves but because of us, ELF. Coz we’ve created, and still creating our very own enemies… it’s our fear of being overshadowed. It’s our narrow mindedness of accepting things and facts that’s inevitable. And most of all, our very own attitude. It’s high time for us, ELF, to face the truth that younger and more talented generations of idols are coming our way.

If we had let the dreams of Super Junior came true and let their light shine the whole world, why can’t we do it to EXO their label mates (& non-label mates, as well)?


Black ocean.

I can be a BlackJack..I can be a VIP..I can be a KissMe..I can be a SONE...and I can stan other idols whenever I want to..coz no matter how we try to view the world in just one color,we can’t. There will always be little specks of red,orange,yellow,green,black,white,pink,etc…for the world doesn't consists of just one color. But at the end of the day, we’ll always come back to the one…our favorite hue..

It’s like going out with your friends just to hang out and have some fun but then coming home to your family to spend some quality time together.

And I take my hat off to those ELF people who are brave enough to stand up for what they like & what they believe in. And for those filthy hypocrites who denies liking other idol groups and hiding themselves behind bashers’ masks, well then, keep on hating. We won’t stoop down to your level, it’s dirty down there. :)