6 YEARS & STILL COUNTING

행복 6th 주년 슈퍼주니어!!!

SS3 3D: SEIZE THE MOMENT

“If you have the chance to take the moment that you know will be memorable, GRAB IT! Always think that the word ‘NEXT TIME’ is always too far.”

I’ve watched Super Show 3 Manila in Araneta last February 26,2011. I’m seated on Upper Box B along with a dear friend but even if we were far away from the stage, the feeling of just being inside the dome with the boys and other ELF’s so overwhelming. When it ended, I really wished it happen again and so it did…SMe announced the showing of SS3 3D in Seoul back in February. Netizens from all over the globe gone crazy hoping their countries could have it too.

We, Philippine ELFs,  have given the opportunity to see THE GREATEST SHOW ON EARTH. Remember that SS3 3D was only shown in Korea,Japan,Taiwan & Singapore. And for a third world country that we are, we are damn lucky that we are included in the list now. Let us show the world that we are worthy of it. That ELF from Philippines are here for Super Junior.

I know some were saying we keep on telling everybody to watch SS3 3D to have SS4 Manila and it was selfishness on our part. That they don’t have that money to be able to watch it and so on and so forth. True, we keep on promoting it not because the producers asked us to but because we are ELF. That reason alone is more important than anything else. And yes, it’s true that we want SS4 Manila to happen so we keep on reminding everybody to watch SS3 3D. But it wasn’t selfishness on our part. Is it selfishness when one wants to help the SS3 3D in Manila successful for us to be able to have SS4? The producers said it themselves that SS3 3D sales is one of the gauge for SS4 Manila. The sales of SS3 3D will be included in the funds for SS4. Now, is that what you call selfishness? It’s just damn funny how those people keep reacting over the promotions of fanbases for SS3 3d when they are the one who’s so eager to have SS4 Manila.

SEIZE THE MOMENT now that we still have it, coz believe me, it is ALL WORTH IT. The feeling of watching the real concert from that in cinema is different especially if you were seated in General Admission or Upper Box areas. SS3 3D will take you on the VIP SEAT!You definitely don’t want to miss it. 

MANTRA

“How can you believe int the word “BELIEVE” when there’s “LIE” in the center? When there’s “END” at the end of every “FRIEND“? And “OVER” in every “LOVER“?”

Then take this following words in you heart and mind…like a prayer… an incantation… a meditation…a MANTRA. Repeat it over and over again, and you’ll see everything will get better. Maybe not now… but atleast by doing this pledge, we all have one mind set. And that’s what matters.

I pledge thee…

LET’S FACE IT

“When you find the courage to stand up for someone, would be the moment you understand love.”

True. But…

It’s so hard defending the one you love when nobody seem to listen…

It’s so hard pretending you don’t feel any hate when your own body & mind screams anger…

It’s so hard trying not to let your tears fall from your own eyes when every time you see their hardships and all, the company they serve their whole life with don’t give a damn anymore…

They suffer too much… lose a member along the way… lose a big award for a stupid reason when we all know for a fact that they deserve it… 2 members went to serve his country… another one will go… and yet still standing amidst all of this.

I know it’s not SNSD’s fault but SONEs can’t blame ELFs if a fanwar starts again. If there is someone to blame here, it’s the company they serve. The unfairness and favoritism.

Let’s face it. If there is one idol group under SME who brings lots of profits in the company, that would be Super Junior. So please don’t take us for a fool. We are sick & tired of it. Don’t let the remaining gratitude & respect we have for bringing SJ into the KPop world vanish because of this crap.

SECOND BEST… BUT STILL THE BEST

He’s the only member of Super Junior who managed to always make me think twice about choosing Jungsoo as my bias. Sure, Yesung, Sungmin & the EunHae couple managed to do that too but this four have certain places in my bias list and they don’t bother my feelings unlike what this particular member was doing. He’s creating havoc in my system to the point where I was asking myself “If by chance that I saw him first instead of Leeteuk, would he be on the top spot?” I bet he will… coz if not, I wouldn’t be asking myself that question and it would be hypocrisy on my part if I won’t admit that I, too, like that beautiful human being.

He was misunderstood for his actions. He was loathed for his personality. He was envied for his feminine-like beauty. All of this negativity was because of his unique character. But why judge a person whom you don’t personally know and just based it on what you are seeing? He may be different from the rest of the artist his age but this same reason made him stood out from the rest. His name is…

KIM HEECHUL

He’s a good hyung to his dongsaengs although it’s not obvious. He’s a good dongsaeng to his only hyung, Jungsoo. He’s a very good friend to his league, the Chocoball. He’s a good master to his pets. And most importantly, he’s the Universal Space Big Star of Petals all around the world. A multi-talented person worthy of love and respect… if only other people see beyond what he portrays.

My respect for him as a person goes beyond from being a fan. He may be second best to Leeteuk from my fangirl point of view but still he’s the best. He’s never afraid to voice out what he feels even if the consequences of what he will say or do would affect his status as an idol. He’s the kind of person who’s transparent to his feelings even if this transparency makes him look like the grumpy & moody kind of guy. But this certain character proves that he has a pure heart… why? When he’s hurt or feeling down, he’ll shut out the world and let himself heal from the pain his feeling… but when he can’t take it anymore, he’ll shed his rare tears and you’ll know it’s pure. The tears of a strong person are the purest of all coz it comes from his heart. He may come out as a vulnerable person when he did but it only shows he’s only human capable of feeling hurt. And when Heechul show the world his smile, you’ll know its sincere coz it’s rare to see him smile.

THE MILKY WHITE SKIN NINJA

He’s one of the few people I know who’s loved and hated at the same time but this only make him more popular and respected in the industry. And now that he’s going to enter the military to serve his country, I will miss him terribly. His PETALS (Undead or not) too… and all ELF around the world. No more out of this world antics & gags on stage. No more smirk with intense stare. No more Lady HeeHee. No more random posts from @Heedictator. But two years isn’t that long. And even though Heechul said that we should not wait for him, we will all wait. Every ELF & Petal will.

Life must go on but along with moving on is holding on to the promise we made, not just to Heechul but to all of the members of Super Junior who left… who temporarily leave for the army and to those who will leave to serve his country in the future. And when that happens, we are stronger… stronger and better than what we are now.

“Mr.Simple” is to “Less is More”

“Less is more.” This is a philosophy in Architecture wherein the simplicity of a structure is much appreciated and well recognized. And seeing the MV of Super Junior’s “Mr.Simple} earlier today, I can’t help but associate it to the MV.

The simplicity of the MV speaks volume.

I feel like looking at a beautiful structure painted in monochromatic hue. Clean & regal.Although the album concept was grand & colorful, the MV was far from it. It’s simple. Just black & white. And even if other fans says it’s somewhat “recycled”, we can’t deny the fact that Super Junior really do look GOOD & effortlessly HOT  in Black & White concepts.

If SMe used the concept of the album cover itself, do you think it will turn out the way it did now? I don’t think so… coz if the MV was in colorful mood, we won’t be able to focus our eyes on the boys themselves. Our eyes will always be caught on the vibrant atmosphere of the video if SMe put the album concept to life. Right?

The simplicity of the MV makes it more appealing to the eye of fan & non- fan themselves. And I bet my life, all ELF around the world keep replaying the MV! Just like what I am doing right now 

AWAKENING

I am the kind of girl who falls in love so easily. That was before… when your own young heart believes in fairy tales, prince charming and most of all, happy endings. But people do change… maturity and reality has taken its toll on me. I’d like to think I become wiser on dealing with problems of the heart while I was growing up but from time to time, we can’t really escape the feeling of being hurt at times. I don’t want to say I become bitter but instead, become wiser… although sometimes, people around me told me I am become one.

Ever since I know the meaning of the word “crush”, it’s been hitting me so fast like a bullet aimed at my heart. But realizing all of it now and being a mature person I like to think that I am, using that word was only meant for young girls. Mine would be “infatuation”… more of admiration… a deeper feeling from crush but a lesser one from love. Only that it hurts much deeper than love because they are special people who happen to be in your life but don’t belong to you. I never did learn any lesson from it from past experiences… one can’t blame a stubborn heart, right? Especially when your mind won’t cooperate with what your heart was saying… it only creates havoc in your whole being and at the end of the day you just give up on arguing with yourself and just give in or people would think you’re going crazy for talking to yourself.

My friends know all about those special people who happened to occupy my heart and mind from the very beginning. From a childhood friend who will never ever know that he was so dear to me because we part ways when he learned the difference between a girl and a boy and abandoned the friendship we had just because he don’t want to play with me anymore. To a neighbor who courted me, only to be deceived from believing that he really liked me when the truth is, he was my best friend’s boyfriend. I lost my first “boyfriend” and I lost my best friend because of a bet but I have forgiven them a long time ago. Then, to several classmates along my school years from elementary to high school… maybe it was really my fault falling for a friend when that friend of yours happened to like one of your best gal pals. I never did learned, really, even when I was in college. The only consolation I keep telling myself whenever I feel nostalgic about it was that at least I experienced the feeling of “falling in love”… unrequited love… that will always be my case.

A close friend would always tell me it’s martyrdom on my part. Giving up when the battle haven’t even started yet… but how can I win from the battle when I know from the very beginning that I will lost in the end? Those special people have already chosen their partners, and that was not me. It may be a dear, dear friend or a colleague or just random person who happens to be more likeable than me. But there are cases in the past that we both feel the same thing or so I like to think. The problem was that I don’t have the guts to say it to him for it would ruin the friendship we had. Or that it’s just a figment of my imagination that what I see from his eyes and the way he cares for me was he liked me too. Or that I’m just a coward. I don’t know and it will always be regret on my part. Every time I think about it, what ifs and maybes are bugging me… and I will never know the answer to all of it. They have move on already and they are all happy. I just wish that someday I can be happy too. After all the heart aches and regret my heart has been to, I somehow didn’t believe in love anymore. Call it bitterness or cynical, I won’t mind… it’s all in the past.

A special angel brought me back to my senses and made me believe in love again. Hope, really do, springs eternal. If one day, my heart beats for a specialperson again, though I’m quite sure it already did, I’ll gladly accept it and make it real. Not that the person who awakens my heart again isn’t a real one, coz he is. It’s just that he’s so high and I can’t reach him. And now that I am old enough to know the difference between reality from fantasy, and love from admiration… that certain feeling for this man was far from pure love. Yes, it is love but this kind of love I feel for him was out of respect and admiration for a man who happens to awaken a numb heart… that when the heart beats again, she saw his beautiful smiling face and made her believe that love never abandon her. She just had a long rest from the weariness and pains life has brought her and now that she’s alive again and rejuvenated, she’s stronger and wiser than before. And she’s ready to fall in love again… in time and if there’s someone out there who will give his heart to her.