PARA SA’YO…BASAHIN MO!

Hindi ginawa ang fanbase para sa pansariling interes lang ng kung sino mang gumawa nito. Ginawa ang fanbase para TUMULONG sa mga fans ng mga idol group na mahal nilang pare-pareho. Kaya hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kailangan may mga naninira sa mga fanbase imbes na suportahan. Ang nakakalungkot pa, kapwa kababayan mo ang naninira. Mabuti pa ang mga taong hindi mo kalahi, yun pa yung walang sawa at handang suportahan ang mga projects ng fanbase mo. Kahit na gusto mo silang pasalihin sa projects ng fanbase mo, hindi pwede. Bakit? Para saan pa ang paglagay ng PH o Philippines sa pangalan ng fanbase mo kung ganoon din lang naman? Kaya nga may PH o Philippines dahil priority ka ng fanbase mo! Isang pribilehiyo, isang pagpapahalaga sa’yo na kahit kailan hindi yata sumagi sa isip mo.

Hindi ginawa ang fanbase para magspam ng pictures at facts tungkol sa idol group na gusto mo. Oo, importante ang mga yun sa isang fanbase o fandom para malaman ng mga kapwa fans ang mga dapat nilang malaman at gusto nilang makita. Pero hindi ba dapat kung fan ka, bago ka sumali sa fandom e alam mo kahit papaano ang mga bagay na dapat mong malaman sa mga idol group na gusto mo. Pero sa nakikita ko, hindi. Ano pa’t sinabi mong fan ka kung kahit tunay nilang pangalan at birthday o blood type nila ay di mo alam at kailangan pang sabihin sa’yo ng mga fanbase para pumasok sa kukote mo? Hindi ba dapat kusa mong inaalam ang lahat o kung hindi man, kahit mga simpleng bagay lang tungkol sa kanila? Ganoon kasi dapat…ganoon ang tama!

Hindi ginawa ang fanbase para manikil o mangulimbat ng pera at manloko ng kapwa fan. Oo, may mga projects ang fanbase na kailangan ng pera. Kailangan yun e! Pero hindi ibig sabihin nun na pinipilit ka nilang magbigay… hindi yun pilitan dahil kahit ang mga namumuno sa isang fanbase, alam ang sitwasyon ng kapwa nila fan. Mahirap ang buhay lalo na dito sa bansa natin. Ang gusto lang naman nila e konting tulong. Kung ano ang kayang ibigay, moral man o pinansyal, malaking bagay na yun para sa fanbase. Yun ang hindi naiisip ng ibang fans, na hindi ko alam kung makitid lang talaga ang utak o sadyang tanga lang.

Hindi ginawa ang fanbase para maging front ng isang negosyong pansarili.Madaming ganito, lalo na sa facebook. Oo, may mga fanbase na nagbebenta ng mga fangoods at merchandise. Pero hindi lahat! At hindi para sa sarili nila kundi para sa fanbase mismo. Pondo. Hindi naman tatakbo ng mabuti ang isang samahan kung wala silang pondong magagamit para sa proyekto nila na ikaw din ang makikinabang sa huli. Yung mga online stores na nagtatago sa likod ng “fanbase”, hindi ko alam kung sasaludo ba ako sa pagiging maabilidad nila o mapapailing sa pagiging oportunista. Nakakalungkot lang na karamihan sa mga tumatangkilik dito ay pulos baguhang fan. Mga inosenteng kabataan na naaakit ng mga bagsak presyong produkto. Kung sana’y ang mga pinambili nilang pera sa mga bagay na ito ay inilaan na lang nila sa mga importanteng bagay katulad ng fanprojects o kaya’y albums na counted sa music charts ng Korea e di sana’y nakatulong pa sila.

Seryosong gawain ang pagtatag ng fanbase! Hindi to lokohan! Akala ng nakararami, ginawa ito para magspam ng pictures; magpalaro ng kung ano-anong games na ang premyo ay pic spam din; at magspam ng facts na matagal ng alam ng fans. Paulit-ulit na lang, walang bago…nakakasawa na. Ginawa ang fanbase para tumulong sa fandom! Ginawa ang fanbase para maging daan sa idol group na gusto mo! Ginawa ang fanbase bilang pasasalamat, bilang pagbibigay pugay at importansya sa idol group na pare-parehong nyong mahal! Ginawa ang fanbase para sa’yo!

Kaunting pabor na nga lang ang hinihinging kapalit ng fanbase sa’yo, hindi mo pa maibigay. Konting tulong. Konting suporta. Pero anong ginagawa mo? Naninira ka. Sa tingin mo ba, matutulungan ka ng facts at picture spam para maiparating sa idol group na gusto mo ang gusto mong iparating? Hindi! Anong alam mo? Anong karapatan mong manira kung kahit konti wala ka pang naibibigay na tulong? Wala kang alam. At lalong wala kang karapatan. Dahil hindi ikaw ang walang sawang nagpupuyat at nagtyayagang maghintay , mangalap at magtranslate ng impormasyon at balita. Hindi ikaw ang walang sawang mag-isip ng projects para maipakita mo sa idol group na gusto mo na meron silang fanbase sa bansa mo. Hindi naman ikaw ang nagtatrabaho ng halos 24/7 na walang hinihintay na sweldo kinsenas katapusan. At lalong hindi ikaw ang naglalabas ng malaking halaga galing sa sarili mong bulsa mapunan lang ang kakulangan ng fanbase na dapat ikaw ang isa sa mga gumagawa.

Konting tulong. Konting suporta. Konting pasasalamat. Konting pagkilala. Kahit isa lang sa mga ito. Yun lang ang hinihinging kapalit. Yun lang. Pero ano? WALA. Kaya wag kang magtataka kung isang araw, mawalang lahat bigla ang mga fanbase dito sa Pinas dahil sa pinaggagagawa mo. Hindi mo sila masisisi dahil wala silang kasalanan. Ginagawa nila ang lahat para sa’yo! Pero anong isinusukli mo? Paninira sa mga projects nila na para sa’yo din naman at sa mismong fanbase na kasapi ka! Ikaw ang may sala kung magsawa man silang tumulong at umintindi sa’yo. At kanino ka tatakbo? Dun sa mga “fanbase” na puro facts at pic spam? Nagpapatawa ka yata?!?

Hindi naman ang fanbase ang mawawalan kundi ikaw. Dahil hindi mo binigyang importansya ang pribilehiyong pinagkaloob nila sa’yo. Ang fanbase kapag nawala pwedeng bumalik at lalong maging mas matatag, pero ikaw? Wala ka ng babalikan pa! Dahil sa mga walang kapararakang bagay na ginawa mo, ikaw mismo ang nag-alis sa sarili mo. Nakakaawa ka naman…para kang isang batang iniligaw ang sarili’t nalayo sa magulang dahil sa katigasan ng ulo… hindi na alam ang daan pabalik kaya’t iiyak na lang.

Kung naalis ang agiw sa utak mo dahil sa mga nabasa mo, maraming salamat. Kung hindi, salamat pa rin dahil pinansin mo ako. Naiparating ko sa’yo ang dapat kong iparating. At kung balak mong salungatin ang pinagsasabi ko dito, ikaw ang bahala. Panalo pa rin naman ako at ikaw ay mananatiling talunan dahil isa lang ang ibig sabihin no’n, nagkaroon ka ng pakialam… tinamaan ka. Bahala ka kung anong gusto mong gawin at sabihin laban sakin, laban dito. Hindi ko hawak ang pagiisip mo. Pero sana’y naantig ang puso mo kahit papaano. Alam kong hindi ka bato, may pag-asa ka pa… sana’y balang araw matauhan ka. Dahil kung hindi’y magiging huli na ang lahat para sa’yo. Hindi mo na maibabalik ang lahat sa dati at ang pagsisisi ay habang buhay mong dadalhin sa konsensya mo.

A DREAM… SOON TO BE REALITY…

9:00 in the morning, I suddenly woke up… and the first thing I saw when I open my eyes was Leeteuk’s face. I always have this big picture of him posted on my bedroom wall and every night, before I went to sleep, I’ll look at it and said goodnight. Weird, right? Oh well, what would you expect from a bias or a SuJu fan like myself? ^^

I don’t know why this morning felt different. I grab my cellphone and start to play a song that I just got from my sister yesterday. It was Parokya ni Edgar’s (a legendary OPM band) Pangarap Lang Kita featuring Ms. Happee Sy’s (now Mrs. Vernon Go^^) voice, she’s the producer of Super Show here in Manila. I was listening to the song while looking at Teuk’s face and a favorite line from one of my favorite local paperback romance writer kept ringing inside my head. She wrote this quote on one of her novels which is about a girl who fell in love with one of the members of a rock band. The friend of the girl said this line to her: “Hindi ka kayang mahalin ng isang pangarap lang…” (“A dream can’t love you back…”). With the words ringing in my head and the song playing over and over again in the background plus the face of the man my heart beats for staring back at me, train of thoughts suddenly filled my head.

I know for a fact that he can’t like or love me back for many reasons my mind could think of. One, I’m just one of his millions of fans. Two, I’m here in my own country and he’s in Korea. And even if I live in the same place as his, will there be a possibility that he will notice me from so many girls around him? Three, I know I’m beautiful in my own way but I don’t think I’m his type of girl. So on and so forth. But like I always tell to myself, “There’s no harm in dreaming.” So I kept on dreaming even if reality was already in front of me, biting me like a snake. Until this morning, my mind flashed this in front of me… I WANT TO SEE HIM, PERSONALLY. Why?

I want to see him, personally, not because I want to seduce (LOL) him into liking me back. Or stalk him like a fan should do to their idol. I just want to see him because I want to know if what I feel for him is real. I want to know if my heart will beat so hard like the way it always did whenever I see his face on t.v. or pictures. I WANT TO KNOW IF WHAT I FEEL IS REAL. I may sound like a delusional fan, but I know the score. I am not. I just want to be free from the aching but wonderful feeling that envelopes my whole being ever since I started to notice him. I want to fall in love with a real man, not that I’m saying he’s not real or anything.  A real man whose going to love me back and accept me for who I am. A real man whom I can spend my whole life with and I can touch and feel his warmth. Do you get what I mean?

I don’t when I’ll be able to see him personally. Maybe next year, before he enlist the army or maybe after two to three years, when he goes out of the army. I don’t really know. Only time will tell but one thing I’m sure is that I’m really going to see him even if it takes years before that happen. I still have to finish my studies and work for a living so I can save money for travelling abroad. I still have to prioritize my career and family. Love can wait. For now, dreaming of him is the only way to cope up with what I am feeling right now.

A dream can’t love me back, I know. But just like what the heroine in the novel I’ve read, I can always make my dream possible. Who knows, when the time comes I finally go to his place, a miracle might happen? Maybe the dream will stay a dream and then I’ll move on with my life…or maybe it will turn into a reality…just maybe…

What is E?What is L?What is F?

I’m not a folklore creature with those pointed ears and white bearded face. I’m not a fairytale character who lives in a tree house with a damsel in distress. I’m not a mystical creature living in the dark and have magical powers. I’m just a normal human being who lives peacefully here in this world. I eat, I sleep, I breathe and live or die. I smile, I laugh, and I can get hurt and cry. But the only thing that separates you from me is, I have 15 special men in my life.

I’m proud of their great leader who always wears his angelic smile. I admire their sub leader who’s never afraid to be always true to his self. I respect the Chinese man who stand up and defend his decisions in life. I love the art-like voice of their weird but talented guy. I believe in the strength of the “most handsome man” to stand up and face his flaws. I’m amazed of the cuddly bear that got the “moves”. I cherish the many sides of the pumpkin guy who’s not ashamed to admit he loves pink. I care for the crying baby monkey who shows the world his unique gummy smile. I am moved with every tear that falls from the prince-charming guy. I bow down to the guy with many gestures for his strong faith in God. I’m not losing hope that the man with the beautiful smile will come back. I love how the “eternal magnae” takes care of his hyungs with his cooking skills. I like how the magnae “plays” the role of a hyung and never afraid to show his evil mature side. I look up to the chic man who never back down from detractions. And I find the musical child genius who wears his cute puffy cheeks so irresistible; fifteen normal humans but multi-talented men that I hold dear inside my heart.

I may not have super powers like the mystical creature my name associates with, but I can do better than that. I can spread love and friendship all over the world because I believe in these 15 men… because I believe that we are ONE. And one thing I assure you is that I promise to stand up beside them no matter what the future have for both of us. That I promise to hold on to the vow I made; to protect the bond between us until the world is covered with Sapphire Blue balloons.

Wondering who am I? I go by the name of ELF, an Ever Lasting Friend of Super Junior. Nice to meet you 

DWENDE o KABUTE? Alin ka sa dalawa?

Badtrip ako after makapanood ng Rated K sa ABS-CBN kaya naman naglabas ako ng sama ng loob sa text dahil wala akong internet sa ngayon. Marami akong nakakwentuhan na kapwa ELF, yung iba pare-pareho kami ng opinion, yung iba hindi at nirerespeto ko yun. Pero may particular topic akong nabuksan, yun ay yung mga klase ng ELF ngayong mga panahon na ito at isa sa mga kausap ko ang nagbigay sakin ng ideyang ito dahil narin siguro pareho kami ng pananaw.

Base na rin sa mga nakikita at nakakausap ko, sa facebook, twitter, tumblr, forums o sa personal man, eto lang ang napansin ko sa mga kapwa ko ELF, international at Pinoy, may dalawang klase pala ng ELF. Pero dahil Pinoy ako, magfocus muna tayo sa mga Pinoy ELF.

May 2 klase ng ELF sa Pilipinas:

1. DWENDE- Pinoy translation ng elf. Sila ang mga hardcore Pinoy ELF, yung klase ng ELF na kahit anong mangyari sa SuJu ay nandyan lang palagi, handang sumuporta , moral man o pinansyal. Sila din yung tipong tanggap lahat ng kahinaan at kalakasan ng bawat miyembro ng Super Junior. Iiyak pag umiiyak ang isa, masaya pag masaya sila, yung iba nga tatawanan pa yung member pag nakakatawa na yung pinaggagawa nila. Pero kahit mukang tanga na sila minsan sa kung ano-anong kalokohan na ginagawa nila sa sarili nila, tanggap na tanggap ng mga DWENDE ang lahat. A TRUE BLUE ELF ika nga. Isama na natin sa kategoryang ito yung mga official fans club sa Pinas na talaga namang napakasipag at dedicated sa Super Junior dahil sa mga fan project at kung ano-ano pa. Sobrang nakakabilib silang mga DWENDE J

1. KABUTE- Pinoy translation ng mushroom. Sila naman ang mgaoccasional ELF, yung klase ng fan na sumusulpot lang pag trip nila, kabute nga kasi. Maraming naglipanang ganitong klase ng fan ngayon, pansin ko lang. Sila yung mga klase ng “ELF” na nagpaparamdam lang pag may nangyaring maganda sa SuJu o di naman kaya e makikisali sa kasiyahan ng kapwa daw nila ELF, masabi lang na ELF din sila. Pero madalas, sila yung mga tipo na may konti lang na pinagdadaanan ang SuJu o ang fandom e nega (negative) na agad at aalis ng fandom tapos babalik pag humupa na ang tension at masaya na ang lahat. Isama pa yung mga “fans club” na biglang litaw at nakakapampagulo lang doon sa mga official fans club. Hindi ko alam kung nagpa- power trip lang sila o sadyang hindi lang talaga sila tunay na ELF.

Gusto kong papaniwalain ang sarili kong mas marami pa rin ang bilang ng mga kapwa ko DWENDE kaysa sa mga KABUTE. Na mas marami pa rin ang TRUE BLUE ELF kaysa sa mag OCCASSIONAL ELF lang. Na ang mga KABUTE ay pwedeng maging DWENDE pero ang DWENDE ay wag naman sanang maging KABUTE.

So, ikaw, alin ka sa dalawa? 

DIMINISHING SAPPHIRE BLUE LIGHT?

MAY 29, 2011, 8 PM. An episode all about Korea aired on one of the programs of a local network here in the Philippines. It’s fun, entertaining and educational since we have learned so much about the colorful culture of Korea. And one of the topics they tackle was the Korean Pop culture.

We all know that Korean music and entertainment has invaded the lives of not just Asian people but even those Americans & Europeans. Korean dramas were shown on local channels whether it is subbed or dubbed and everybody’s hooked on it. Korean music invaded the local music industry even though we don’t understand any word they were singing. But maybe that’s the magic of it, the mystery of its language and the feeling it brought to the audience, young or old it might be.

But what caught my attention was one of the highlights of the program, the music industry of Korea, specifically the KPOP idol groups. And one of them is Super Junior. You can’t blame a fan for noticing a thing, good or bad it might be, about their idols, right?

The host particularly said that this idol group is not active and famous in their own country. I don’t want to sound like a butt-hurt fan coz frankly even before I got into the fandom, I already know that Super Junior was not as famous as they used to be, but what hurt this fan’s heart was that they didn’t thoroughly researched the facts. Sure, Super Junior was not as famous as 2PM or other younger idol groups in Korea but still, they already established their band in the entertainment industry and they were now conquering America and Europe. Individual members of Super Junior even have established their own names in the industry as MCs, DJs, theater actors, composers, television hosts, product endorsers and entertainers. Is that what they call not famous? Not even half it was done by other group who’s more famous than them now.

They were not as famous as other groups not because they lack of fans and such but because of the competition in the Korean music industry due to the new groups sprouting like mushrooms. And this new groups look up to them as inspiration and as parameter for success because of what they have become all these years and their numerous achievements. Fans should know about it but sadly it’s not. Because of this program, I saw what some fans really are, to think that they are with SuJu longer than I am and that’s what really hurts me.

Fine, I was still new in the fandom, considering that I got into this just last year 2010, but even before I got into the fandom, I know for a fact that they are not as famous as they were way back when they debuted up to 2009 during Sorry, Sorry days. I know for a fact that they are getting older and, that sooner or later, they will gradually be inactive in the industry. But these things didn’t stop me from getting into the fandom. Why? Because of one particular thing that I saw between the idol group and their fans. Love.

I got lured into the fandom because of the strong bond between Super Junior and ELF. It was like having older brothers and sisters. A family. It was so pure and magical that I couldn’t believe it in my own eyes until I accepted it in my life. But where’s the fandom I know? The fandom that I believe will always be there for SuJu and for each other? Just because Super Junior was not famous as they used to be, fans will start to back away? I know not all ELF are like that but we can’t deny that there are really some who’s doing this kind of stuffs. Some fans backing away from the fandom and the idols they profess their undying love & loyalty just because they are getting old and started to be less famous. Some fans start to care less when they find other groups more famous than SuJu. I don’t want to believe that the Sapphire Blue light is diminishing….

I want to believe that there’s more ELF who will still be there for Super Junior when they become Super Senior. I want to believe that when Super Junior members part ways and do their own thing, ELF will still support each member on whatever they decide to do with their individual lives. I want to believe that ELF will keep the fire burning. I want to believe that ELF will keep their promise to cover the world with Sapphire Blue balloons. I want to believe that even if the fandom might dissolved and so is the group they cherished, ELF will continue what they have established, the love for each other. I want to believe that Super Junior and ELF are still family, that we are still ONE.

Even if things become like this, I want to believe that our bond is still strong……. Because that’s the fandom I know… that’s the fandom I got into… that’s the fandom I want to grow old with…

IS IT JUST A JOKE OR A BAD CASE OF BEING A FAN?

As a fan girl, it’s okay to say that your bias is your boyfriend, your husband or whatever you want them to be. It’s understandable since you are a fan but claiming and branding them as your own is another matter especially if you are threatening the lives of other fans.

I’m not into ELF text clan but I have friends from the fandom who got my number from forums and such, which was fine with me coz we have the same interest, Super Junior. And it’s been like a month ever since I’ve been in touch with other ELF through text messaging. It’s fun getting to know them more through it, but lately, I’ve been bothered by something.

At first, it was just one ELF who keeps texting that kind of group message saying things like she doesn’t want other ELF who has the same bias as her to text her. I thought it was okay thinking she was just jealous and it wouldn’t bother me anyway coz we have different bias. But then it gotten somehow disturbing when she started saying things like her bias was hers alone and worst was she mentioned killing whoever claims her bias, not just once but every time she send a group message. Is that a joke or what? Coz if that was a joke, it’s not funny at all.

As her fellow ELF and unnie, I did try to understand her since she was way younger than me. But it really disturbs me when other young girls like her do the same thing. One girl doing that, even if it’s a joke or whatever, is tolerable but when they become 2 or more, it’s quite alarming. Alarming because it’s not only that they threaten the lives of other fans, though I know she don’t have the guts and means to do it, but also their own lives when they keep saying they’ll commit suicide. And other fans really did it right? Why? I don’t get it.

There’s no harm in dreaming but sometimes you have to wake yourself up to pull you back to reality. You are not the only person in this world who happens to like him. There are so many fans out there who happens to like your bias too and you all have the right to claim them as your boyfriend or husband.  You can’t just stop and say to others not to like them. We all have equal rights. I don’t think a fan would like to be known as a delusional, obsessive, deranged one.

I MISS HIM :(